Showing posts with label Tuffy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Tuffy. Show all posts

Thursday, May 20, 2010

EMPS: Mostly Say Hooray For Our Side (Part Two)

I'm breaking my EMPS entry into two parts this week. This is Part Two. Scroll UP for Part One.

As I mentioned in the entry I'll be posting about two minutes after this one, the theme for this week's EMPS is Sides. The term applies in a couple of ways at a baseball game like the one John and I attended tonight as our 31st wedding anniversary celebration. The right and left sides of Hi Corbett Field, and ballparks generally, are referred to as the "First Base side" and the "Third Base side," or the "home team side" and the "visitors' side." And of course we take sides at sporting events. We're supposed to "root, root root for the home team," right?

But tonight it looked as though we were heading for "If they don't win it's a shame." Toros starting pitcher Vince Davis gave up four runs in the first five innings, and the Toros batters only managed to score once in seven innings.


Lino Garcia doubles, eventually going 4-4 on the night. But Toros batters
score only one run in seven innings.

So. Bottom of the 8th, down 3 runs. John's talking about going home. Then:


Two out, bases loaded, team down 1 run to 4. Wally Backman Jr. evens the score 
with a 3 RBI triple! "Wally! Wally! Wally!" the crowd chants.

Suddenly it's a ball game! And the relief pitcher, Andrew Snowdon, celebrates his first professional ball game by striking out four batters in two and two-thirds scoreless innings. Way to go, kid! These late game heroics lead to a classic bottom-of-the-ninth battle, which I persuade John to stick around for. With Toros at second and third base, the Calgary Capitals intentionally walk Josh Womack, who has no hits on the night. Jose Valdez, also hitless, steps to the plate.


Bottom of the ninth: full count, tie score, one out, bases loaded!


The opposing pitcher walks in the winning run! Toros Win!


5 Runs, 9 hits, 1 error. Party on the First Base side!

Karen

More about this game: Toros Deliver 5-4 Walkoff Victory On Opening Night

Thursday, November 20, 2008

A Break in the Routine

Today (by which of course I mean yesterday; my days run from afternoon to the following early morning) hasn't exactly been filled with "adventure, excitement and really wild things;" but it has been a bit of a rutbreaker. Just for starters, I was interviewed today by a reporter for the Tucson Citizen. It would be nice if the interview were about my wild success instead of dismal failure, but that's how it is. The reporter was looking for a story on how the recession was affecting people who recently became unemployed here in Tucson, so I emailed and told him. It seems to me that my particular story is kind of noteworthy, not because of me but because of the way it illustrates the larger problem. Every "permanent" job I've had in the past 15 years was with a company that has now gone bankrupt, closed its doors or both. I went back to school to get a degree in a high-paying, high-demand field, and it's currently doing me no discernible good. And I didn't even mention the whole health insurance issue. The article is supposed to run on Friday. I'll link to it when it comes out.


The other thing I did today, besides the dog park and watching Doctor Who, was follow through on the second email from AOL about AOL Pictures shutting down. As with AOL Journals, American Online has made arrangements for a simple conversion process to another service. This one is called PhotoWorks, and it's free. Well, sort of. I read part of the new member FAQ, and there's a catch. The site is run by American Greetings, and they want you to buy something, at least once a year - prints, calendars, custom greeting cards, something. If you don't, your free storage goes away. After that, you would presumably see the image on the left instead of your lovely pictures. I got this result tonight one one of my entries, and I'm pretty sure it was my fault. I had accidentally deleted a couple of images, and copying them back into that album didn't restore the link.

I had already saved everything stored in AOL Hometown (which is also gone now), but had not grabbed this stuff. Fortunately it was extremely simple and quick, at least for the relative handful of pictures I had on YGP/AOL Pictures. I logged in from my Mavarin screen name, which isn't even my main email account, although I treat it as such. It didn't matter. It grabbed everything I had stored from any screen name, including the images that used to grace my earliest entries from my old AOL Journal Musings from Mâvarin. I had already gone through the Blogger versions of most of those entries and relinked to the same images as stored on mavarin.com, but it was still good to grab what was there.

For one thing, I rediscovered some 2004 Tuffy pictures that I didn't seem to have on my hard drive. They were taken with the old Mavica, an early, bulky digital camera with such low-res photos that we used to get twenty of them on each floppy disk, which is what the camera used for storage. Unsurprisingly, they're not great pictures, but I'm fond of them. I still remember the day I took some of them. One thing I did tonight was save them back to my hard drive and clean them up with PhotoStudio. It helped a lot.

My PhotoWorks albums were kind of an odd lot. There was an entire album of someone else's fall foliage shots, and another one of somebody's messes from a discussion I had with other journalers back in 2004. I also had a "scratchpad" album with one photo, a "shoebox" album with 51 photos, a few albums I put together on purpose for various incarnations of AOL profiles and AIM pages, and a bunch of albums named after individual Musings entries. Most of the latter had one or two photos each. Surprisingly, there were also a number of journal-based albums with zero photos each! I'm not quite sure what happened there, but nothing seems to be missing. I deleted the empty albums and consolidated the onesies. From here they could be re-linked to the relevant entries on the Blogger version of the old journal, but as I say, I'd already relinked to most of the same images as stored elsewhere. Just as well, really.

The most annoying part of the process was dealing with a few old Woohoo slideshows. These were the cool AOL Pictures slideshows that had various effects available for the transition from one image to the next. My favorite by far was the "Ken Burns" style, named for the documentary director's technique of panning across still photos while zooming in and out on them. I had one of those set up for a slide show of a 2004 trip to Las Vegas, and another one was on the main page of the St. Michael's website. With the transfer to PhotoWorks, those Woohoos were gone. I had to fuss with the St Michael's page for a while to get the more boring Picasa version of the slide show in place, realign the table it was in, and fix some text that the site's host service, GoDaddy, kept resizing as tiny.

While I was at it, I also put in a bit of time tagging a bunch of the Musings entries. There are over 600 entries, so it's way too tedious a job to do all at once. Another problem with some of the old entries is that spaces between words went missing in a number of places. This used to be an ongoing glitch in the early days of AOL Journals, and the transfer to Blogger seems to have exacerbated the problem.

You may have noticed that I've been fussing with the sidebar for the Outpost in recent days. Blogger recently introduced much better sidebar widgets, now called gadgets. My favorite is the blogroll-style linking lists, one which you can display the most recent entry of each blog and the first image in that entry. I found that very handy last weekend in keeping track of who has posted their Round Robin entries. It's also a very fast way to see what interesting things people are up to generally.

Anyway, I've set up a more exclusive "Recent Robins" list in place of the old static one, listing only the people who played last weekend. If you play along with the next one, "On My Table,", your blog will be added to the list. A second sidebar gadget section, titled "Weekenders," will similarly link to everyone who does one or more Weekend Assignments. Everyone else whose blog I visit with any frequency (or feel that I should) is on one or more of the other sidebar lists. If you're a regular reader and I'm not linking to your blog, let me know and I'll probably add it. I purged quite a few inactive or defunct blogs with my recent update.

Karen

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Half a Lifetime of Dogs


Three decades of dogs on one bed: Pepper, Noodle, Cayenne, Tuffy and Jenny.

If you read last night's entry, the picture above probably looks a little familiar to you. I did a version of it last night for the Round Robin Photo Challenge, compositing Tuffy into a photo of Pepper and Cayenne on the bed. For that one I tried to comply with the Challenge's concept, which was to match up parts of two photos into something that almost, but not quite, looks like one picture. Even at that I fudged things a bit. Tonight I thought I'd make another pass at the composite image, this time using the tools in my cheap photo editing program to really make it look like the dogs are sharing the bed. And while I'm at it, I'd like to tell you about each of these wonderful dogs. But first, an introduction:

My dad was very allergic to dogs, and I was somewhat allergic myself, but that didn't stop me from being absolutely dog-crazy. I had a poster of AKC breeds on my bedroom wall, and my favorite nonfiction book was called Dogs Dogs Dogs Dogs Dogs. My childhood dream was to be a dog breeder, and breed Pomeranians back up to sled dog size. When my mom took us on a tour of Europe when I was 15, my brother Steve teased me that I went all the way to Europe to pet dogs. For many years I used to look at the price of AKC collie puppies in the classifieds ($75 to $80).

But I couldn't have a dog, all those years growing up in DeWitt and then Manlius, NY. When I started college at Syracuse University in 1975, I lived off campus for a semester, and after that I was in University housing, where no pets were allowed, through my junior year. I did sneak my tropical fish in for a semester before turning them over to someone else (my brother, I think), and later I had a gerbil named Eowyn, who escaped from her case on a regular basis and ate my prom dress. But these lesser pets did little to assuage my need for a dog.

Princess Guinevere of Westcott Street, a.k.a. Jenny Dog (front row, left) was my first dog ever. It was 1978. I had just started my senior year at Syracuse, and moved into a rooming house on Westcott Street, which belonged to my ex-boyfriend Bob (long story). Bob's live-in girlfriend Cathy had a rather spectacularly unattractive black, curly-haired mutt, which had given birth to four puppies that August. I first saw the puppies at Bob's house. Two of them were black like their mother, and two were black and brown and beautiful. Bob called the two-tone puppies Gillie (as in Doby Gillis) and Princess. A week or two later, Bob arrived at my door with Princess hidden under his jacket, and gave her to me. I promptly renamed her.

Jenny went to class with me sometimes as a puppy. She would follow for a while on the leash, and then get tired and sit, and then I would carry her until she squirmed to get down. It was something like a twenty minute walk to my classes. I had a part time job reading textbooks to a blind grad student named Liz, who loved Jenny and said she resembled a lion with her mane of long hair. Several times that winter I let her outside without a leash, but Jenny soon started taking off and going to see Liz a mile away.

But she was smart and loving, and usually obedient. In 1979 I married John and moved to Columbus, Ohio, where we owned a rock and roll store for a couple of years. Jenny stayed in the store with me, never trying to get out as people came and went. She learned to respond to whistles based on the cadence and pitch of spoken commands, such as Jenny Up! The whistled version of Jenny Dog! is still used by John and myself sometimes to find each other in public places. She loved to play with balloons, which we put in her stocking at Christmas, and she liked to fetch sticks. In 1986 she traveled the country with us on a mattress in the back of the van. But she became ill about a year later, with Cushing's disease. Even with medicine, it got harder and harder to get her to eat. One day she stopped drinking water, and could barely stand. I knew it was the end for her. The vet said she had metastacized cancer. John was out of town at the time, and I had to make the decision alone. I hired a handyman to dig her grave in the desert behind our back yard. I wrote on her stone, "Best Dog in the World." And she was.

I briefly had a second puppy in the spring of 1979, Wafer, short for Wayfarer. She turned up at my door on her own, a cute, unhousebroken black Labrador retriever puppy. One Sunday morning Wafer and Jenny both started barking, alerting me that the building was on fire! We got out, and the fire never reached my apartment. But two puppies in a one room apartment was one too many. I sorrowfully turned Wafer over to the local Humane Association, where (so they told me) she was promptly adopted.

Noodle was a pound dog, listed as seven months old and a "mixed Spitz." I always thought she was a Samoyed / Golden Retriever cross. She was a bit of a dumb dog, nowhere near as smart as Jenny but every bit as affectionate. Her one talent was for getting at any food that wasn't secured behind an impenetrable door. More than once she ate an entire loaf of bread off the counter, when the bread seemed well out of reach. We had to add a lock to the folding doors enclosing the trash. She never learned to fetch, didn't like balloons, and suffered from arthritis and dementia toward the end of her long life. But she was a good dog.

Tuffy Toro was next. As far as we could figure out, she went from her mother's side to someone's home, on to a shelter, into someone else's home, into yet another home and then into our home, all by the time she was six or seven weeks old. She was part chow, timid and skittish, but considerably smarter than Noodle. Her first few days with us, she chewed up two couches and a strip of wallpaper. John was furious, but did the right thing: we paid for a dog trainer, Karyn Garvin, to help us teach her.

Tuffy never got over barking and running away when anyone came over, but she eventually did reasonably well outside the house, such as at church for the Feast of St. Francis. She didn't have much contact with other dogs except for Noodle early on, and Pepper at the very end. She was not the most affectionate dog in the world, but would greet us when we came home, and liked to check up on us. She was very good about posing for my camera.

In September 2007, Tuffy was diagnosed with squamous cell carcinoma, basically cancer of the tongue. We spent thousands of dollars on surgery and palliative radiation treatments, but that bought her less than a year before the cancer spread and she started to suffer. She died on August 1, 2008.

Pepper was my birthday present in March of this year. Like Tuffy, she's part chow. I'm guessing she's also part border collie. I found her on Petfinder.com. She had been on the verge of euthanasia at Pima County Animal Control along with her litter of puppies, because nobody wants to adopt a whole litter. A group called SAFE (Saving Animals From Euthanasia) rescued her, and fostered her and her puppies until the latter were weaned.

In her initial vet appointment, Dr. L. estimated that Pepper was three or four years old, which is considerably older than SAFE listed her as being. John thinks she's older still. She's a little skittish and standoffish, much like Tuffy, and doesn't like to look us in the eye; but she's getting better. She's stubborn and not very obedient - but again, she's getting better. When she's not hanging out a few feet away from me, she's in the back yard waiting to bark at cats. In the dog park she likes to chase and bark at some of the larger dogs, including a St. Bernard!

Cayenne, affectionately known as Cay-Cay (rhymes with "bye bye"), is our newest dog. I figure she's an Irish Setter/Greyhound cross, or something along those lines. We adopted her on August 2nd, the day after we lost Tuffy to cancer. She was at the Humane Society, with a similar story to Pepper's - she had recently had puppies, and a volunteer had fostered her and the puppies. She has a scar next to one eye. I suspect abuse. She was way too thin when we got her. The fact sheet on her said that she "almost ate a guinea pig."

She is a bouncy, affectionate show-off, eager to please and rather needy. Like Pepper she loves the dog park, and loves chasing other dogs. When she gets excited at home, she tries to get Pepper to play with her. Sometimes it even works! And I love her to pieces.

Karen

Sunday, September 07, 2008

EMPS: Tuffy and the Garden Hose


For this week's Ellipsis Monday Photo Shoot, Carly requests the following:

EMPS #2: Water In Motion.
For this assignment, any type of moving water will be perfect. Let your imagination out to play. Photograph a waterfall, a fountain, the ocean moving in and out, raindrops landing in a bucket, a lawn sprinkler watering the yard, water being poured into a glass, even water running under a tap will do nicely. You get the idea, WATER IN MOTION.


Tuffy's Last Water Game
Obviously these photos aren't brand new; I shot them in May. It was the last time I ever saw Tuffy playing the game of trying to catch moving water from a garden hose. I posted the relatively uncropped pictures before, except for the last one, but when I saw the series on Picasa earlier today I was tempted to do something more with them. As it happens, Carly gave me the perfect excuse to do so! I didn't crop the last shot as much as the others because I thought it might be nice to finish the sequence with a little visual context.


This other shot is from a monsoon rain storm on August 26th. I think the monsoon is over now, but it's difficult to be sure.

And just an update:

I picked these up today, and dropped off a page of Tuffy "LOLdogs" for the doggie oncologists' pet memorial bulletin boards.

That's it for me for tonight! Sorry to end on such a downer. Be sure to stop by Ellipsis and play along with the Ellipsis Monday Photo Shoot!

Karen

Monday, August 18, 2008

The Red Dog and the Black Dog

For Steven's Feline & Furball Friday:

I'm still getting condolences here on Tuffy, both in email and in greeting cards John and I finally got around to opening yesterday. Thanks again to everyone for carrying about poor old Tuftuf, and the people she left behind. I don't think I mentioned this last night, but one of the reasons I posted so late was that I came across a video clip of Tuffy a few days before she died, with her wheezing and me trying to comfort and encourage her. I was trying to consolidate it with a few other clips and clean it up,but with little success. It's very dark, and I don't seem to have a program to lighten it. Can anyone help me out on this? Bea? Becky?



(Pathetic, ain't it?)

At least two of the cards - from vets, yet! - referenced the Rainbow Bridge concept. I'm tempted to call it a meme in the original sense of viral idea. It certainly seems ubiquitous among serious dog and cat people, especially in the dog show and cat show, vet and breeder world. My brother, a cat person, sent me an email with the subject line "Bridge Kid" not long ago. I didn't realize at first that it meant one of his cats had died, and consequently blew my window of opportunity to send my condolences. Now I'm embarrassed to tell him about Tuffy! No, I don't believe in the Rainbow Bridge, where pets supposedly wait for their humans so that everyone enters Heaven together. Tacking a Norse myth onto Christian sensibilities to assuage the grief of a pet owner doesn't make a lot of sense to me. I have enough trouble coping with my deliberately ill-defined concept of heaven. I don't need to have an opinion on whether pets have an afterlife as well. (And no, I don't want to discuss the subject. Emphatically not.)

Pepper meets a puppy even more hyper than Cayenne.

As for the new wrecking crew of Blocher dogs, I've been stepping up my attempts to train them, with little success. Yesterday I took them to the dog park, where they each hid under the picnic table part of the time, allowed a few humans to pet them (Cayenne was better about this than Pepper), wandered solo in the field, and spent just a little time meeting other dogs.

Pepper spent half the time hiding..

...and Cayenne, surprisingly, was almost as shy.

They did get in the thick of things occasionally, though...

...and briefly joined in a doggie parade.

Back at home, we're starting to collect up some of the rawhide we've scattered around the place. The high degree of rawhide availability doesn't stop the dogs from competing for the stuff - they just drive themselves and each other crazy trying to control and hide it all so the other dog doesn't get it. Pepper doesn't even like rawhide much, and has been retching a little bit. But she constantly tries to dig a hole in the bedclothes to bury what she doesn't want to chew. And Cayenne managed to grab the biggest rawhide bone of all out of the cupboard tonight, as John was getting out dog biscuits for them.


Their fave food of the moment: grass.

Then when I take them outside, they spend most of their time chewing on that universal doggie digestion remedy: grass.

Cayenne isn't great about posing for me.

Pepper is even worse about it.

I've also been trying to teach the command "Down," as in "lie down," since they both already know "Sit." It's tough going. Cayenne will eventually do it if I keep leading her forward and downward with the treat, but Pepper has no clue. On her own, her default response is to lie down, but if I ask her to do it in return for this yummy dog biscuit or bit of cheese, she actively resists. She'll even leave the room. But we'll get there.


Meanwhile they're inseparable - and ignore each other.

They've each picked up several nicknames already. Pepper is Pep, Pep Pep, Pepperpot, Pepperoni and The Black Dog. Cayenne is Cay Cay (pronounced Kie-Kie), Cay-annie, Cheyenne (the name of a dog we knew 20 years ago) and of course The Red Dog. If she ever manages to start a fire (not that I expect this!), she'll probably be Cuyahoga as well.

And all too frequently, Pepper gets called Tuffy, and Cayenne gets called Pepper. Clearly we're all still adjusting to the new arrangement.

Karen

Friday, August 01, 2008

Her Last Ride


Tuffy arrives at the vet's for the last time.


It's over.

Contrary to last night's wishful thinking, Tuffy was doing very badly by the time we came home from work tonight. So we took her to the emergency vet on site where the oncologist works.

We knew what the outcome was likely to be. We weren't wrong.


Tuffy investigates a smell before her last ride.

She was struggling to breathe, and it wasn't going to get better. Prednisone might have bought her a few days, but the emergency vet didn't think it was likely. Looking at her disease-damaged body - ears with half the hair gone, the swollen neck, the flaky skin and a new symptom in a drooping mouth - was almost as painful as listening to her puffing and wheezing. We could not put her through another hour of it, let alone an entire weekend.


Another dog collar retired, with honors.

In the end, she had to wait another hour anyway, not counting the 25-minute drive over there. First there was an examination, and some attempt to force some air into her lungs, which we didn't see (or authorize, but that's okay). Then there was the inevitable discussion, in which we quickly made it clear that we weren't going to prolong her suffering, with no real prospect of her getting any better. The tumor that was on one side three weeks ago was surrounding her esophagus and trachea. No wonder she couldn't eat. She had an IV put in, which took forever because a dog named Diesel was brought in in critical condition, and Tuffy had to wait. Then she was brought back into the room for a chance to say goodbye, which also took forever for the same reason. I hope Diesel made it.

The actual end took only a moment. She stopped breathing immediately, and the heart stopped too. It was easier than Noodle, who took awhile to die.

No more suffering, no more worrying over options and possibilities, no more second-guessing ourselves. We absolutely did the right thing. But as John said, "Knowing it's the right thing doesn't make it easy."

We intend to adopt another dog tomorrow. I don't know when the ashes will reach us.


Tuffy in July, 2007

Karen

Weekend Assignment #227: Gimme Some Good News!

It seems as though bad news is coming at us from all directions at the moment, including from this house and this blog. Let's try to balance things about a bit:

Weekend Assignment #227: There must be something positive happening in your life right now (I hope!). Tell us the good news!

Extra Credit: Overall, are you optimistic, pessimistic or neither these days?

She may be feeling a smidge better tonight.

I'm pleased to report that the canine star of http://pitykarensdog.blogspot.com seems to be breathing better tonight. She mostly seems to struggle when she's active or excited - when we first came home tonight she was really loud and upsetting. Tonight she's just hanging out, and for a while she was breathing normally. (It's more like a snore now, but it's not horrible the way it was earlier.) She had her first Piroxicam this morning, and tonight, against my advice, John gave her another aspirin. He figures it can't do any harm at this point (I hope he's right!) and may help. It's really too soon to know whether any of this will do any good, but for the moment I've guardedly optimistic.

In other minor good news, I had a nap tonight, so overall I've got a decent shot at a decent amount of sleep.

Your turn! Tell me something good! Write about it in your blog or journal, and post your links from there to here and here to there. We'll rejoice in your good news a week from tonight!

Karen

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Does Not Follow Directions


Okay, so we couldn't do it. We couldn't let Tuffy go four days with no medication at all. Not when she had already been down to a quarter pill a day, and no pill at all a few days before that. Not when she was having obvious trouble lifting her head, and intermittently snoring while awake. Not when she couldn't even eat cheese any more, let alone dog biscuits.

Not when we could do something about it.

So John gave her an aspirin yesterday and today, inside a slice of shaved turkey. This was not my idea, and he didn't really consult with me beforehand, but I would have said yes. It seems to help a little. And I went out for Cesar brand dog food, the one food we've pretty much always gotten her to eat. I used to hide her pills in it when she was first being treated for the cancer, back when it was on her tongue.

And tomorrow, per John's suggestion, she gets the new med. Okay, we're not following instructions to the letter, and I'm sure there are good reasons why Dr. K. wants the prednisone out of the system before Tuffy gets the other stuff. But there really can't be much prednisone inside her at this point, or she wouldn't be suffering so. And the whole point of this is to keep the suffering at bay as long as we can. Otherwise, what's the point? I'm sitting here listening to her trying to breathe, and morning can't come soon enough for either of us.

In one of the Mâvarin books that I haven't written much of yet, I discovered last week that the king of Mâvarin is self-medicating to rid himself of the effects of a love spell. And I decided tonight that, as in Real Life, that situation won't be resolved quickly or easily. Tuffy is a different matter: right or wrong, we end this painful transitional period tomorrow, and watch her closely to see if the new stuff is going to help. If it does, she gets to live a little longer. If not, then I guess the clock runs out when the reinstated prednisone no longer does enough for her.

I wasn't going to write about Tuffy again tonight, but that was the only thing in my head when I sat down to write this. I could say something about the early Beatles, or Steven Moffat, or the difference between a bug and a feature, or Sara and Sarah going on the Tower of Terror without me (hooray for them!). But really, I'm not prepared tonight for any such rants and rambles. Tomorrow night is the Weekend Assignment, so I'll pull myself together for that. Now, where is that copy of Love?

Karen

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

This Is Me Being Cranky


Y'know what? I'm not in the mood to edit even a small sampling of Disneyland photos tonight, even if I felt I had time. The joy of this past Saturday is gone for the moment. I'm sure I'll regain some equilibrium in a few days, but right now I'm not having a good time. I've finally caught up with my blog-related obligations, but I need sleep, and Tuffy is never far from my mind.


We stopped at the compounding pharmacy on the way home from work to pick up Tuffy's Piroxicam. The pharmacy had a countertop that was full of pictures of dogs and cats, and someone there told me they fill a lot of pet prescriptions, along with the human ones.


Both the vet and the pharmacist said that this non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drug has cancer-fighting properties. I notice that it's refillable six times, but frankly I'll be surprised if Tuffy makes it that far. I'm a little worried about her making it through the four days without prednisone before she can even start on the new stuff. Her appetite has already dropped to almost nothing, and her breathing is labored from the pressure the tumorous lymph glands put on her neck.*


Needless to say, John isn't any happier than I am right now. I think even Pepper is reacting a bit. She certainly seems more deferential to Tuffy than she was.


I don't have anything else to say tonight. Sorry. I'll do better tomorrow.

*Later: Tuffy isn't breathing loudly at all right now. I think I feel better.

The Expected Bad News Arrives

Metastatic cancer is not a good look for Tuffy.

Since we never heard back from the doggie oncologist with the biopsy results for Tuffy, I finally called today to follow up. It turned out that while she was on vacation, the test results came back and were accidentally filed away rather than given to her to see when she got back. I figured it was probably something like that.

Yes, Tuffy's swollen neck is cancer, her squamous cell carcinoma metastasized to her lymph nodes. There are no reasonable treatment options for fixing this - we could spend thousands more dollars but it probably wouldn't help much.

I let Dr K know that we weren't going to try any further dramatic and expensive treatments, and she came up with one other thing to try. There's a drug she mentioned once before. It's very good for cancer-related pain, and has mild carcinoma-fighting properties, i.e. it may slow things down a little. She didn't give a time frame, but I'm guessing we can buy Tuffy a few more months of acceptable quality of life, with a $30 a month prescription from the compounding pharmacy near the "dinosaur McDonald's" at Grant and Tanque Verde. First she needs to go off the prednisone, so that is what we'll do.

Bummer.

Karen

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Pose for Me, Puppies!

Dog biscuits are the key to a good photo shoot.

I have nothing in particular to write about tonight - there's no news about Tuffy, I can't really tell you about work, nothing amazing happened on the weather front, and I'm trying hard not to overwhelm this blog with my Doctor Who ravings. But I've posted some pretty awful photos of Tuffy this week, so I now feel an obligation to post some better ones of Tuffy and Pepper both.

Pepper gets distracted at the wrong moment.

So after work tonight I grabbed a couple of dog biscuits and my camera and headed for the back yard, knowing I would be followed there. Pepper is still more than a little contrary (to be fair, I should admit that we haven't worked hard at training her recently), but both dogs will sit for dog biscuits. Tuffy will even stay on command, if I don't make her wait for long. Pepper, though, doesn't get the whole "stay" thing.

Look at the camera, Pepper! Pepper! Over here!

But what the heck, a couple minutes and a couple dog biscuits later, I had a few good shots anyway. Mostly I wanted to show you that although Tuffy's certainly not at her best, she doesn't look as bad in real life as in some of my recent photos. Also, I should mention that the long grass is the result of our recent rain, and will be cut this weekend. No, not by me!

Pepper "gets small" for the camera.

Pepper isn't actually much smaller than Tuffy; she's just farther away, and crouching a bit. It's a distorted perspective, but a cute one.

That's it for tonight. I'm tagging this for Steven's Feline, Furball & Feather Friday, because tomorrow night is the Weekend Assignment. I sure hope we get a few last minute participants on that....

Karen

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Here Comes the Rain Again

The sidewalk today as I waited for John to pick me up

I think the monsoon has started, but the NOAA / National Weather Service site doesn't seem to actually say so yet. I can't remember the last time I was this blase about the coming of Tucson's rainy season. I guess I'm mostly distracted by the dog and the job and that tv show. Then again, it hasn't actually rained that much yet. We haven't had any really wild storms or amusing-but-nondestructive flooding. June's precipitation was well below the average. We'll see how July does.

Same sidewalk, solarized and in neon

It rained today, though. John was a few minutes late and I stood in the light rain, holding onto a tall metal post until I suddenly realized that's not a good idea during a thunderstorm. I took a few pictures, and it wasn't raining so hard that I have any basis for complaint.


The view from the sidewalk

I did enjoy seeing that after all my clear views of nearby Pusch Ridge, the mountains were rather obscured. There are times during the monsoon when you can be driving in Tucson and not see the mountains that surround the city. The bar for that is higher in Oro Valley where I'm working, because the Catalinas are so close by.

Tuffy and Pepper the Innocent

Meanwhile, here are my canine distractions again. You can see Tuffy's swollen neck, and one possible source of the gouges in her ear: Pepper. She had a fresh one this morning, near her eye. John figures it's either Tuffy scratching, Pepper biting, or the broken doggy door. I suspect the latter. John removed what was left of the flap this morning, just in case. The dogs do seem to get along pretty well these days, a bit jealous but following each other around. Tuffy certainly isn't avoiding Pepper, which I think she would do if the PepPep was acting like the Devil Dog I facetiously accuse her of being.

Karen

Monday, July 07, 2008

Tuffy's Mystery Symptoms


Sorry about the crummy Tuffy pictures. I didn't have my camera with me at the vet, and the phone's camera isn't really good enough for indoor shots. Also, I cloned John out of one of the shots out of respect for his privacy.

The oncologist is leaving tomorrow morning for a week's vacation, and her staff is also taking the time off. But she worked Tuffy in tonight on a 6 PM late appointment. She and the assistant we saw were both a little alarmed with the swollen neck, not so much with the gouges in her ear, which she may have done with her own claws. The ears are already healing.

The vet collected a sample from Tuffy's neck - a viscous fluid - and looked at it under a microscope. She said looked like dead epidermal cells if I understood/remember correctly. That doesn't really tell her whether it's an infection or a tumor or some of each, and of course the next is close enough to the tongue (where the cancer was) to be a concern. So she's sending the sample off to a lab, and set Tuffy home with two weeks' worth of antibiotics to go along with the prednisone and the Pepcid. She'll call us when she gets back.


Meanwhile, there isn't much we can do but keep an eye on her. If she gets alarmingly worse, we can take her in on an emergency basis, but of course there won't be an oncologist available in case that's the problem. But Tuffy seems fine other than the ear and the swelling - the same weight as last time, reasonably active and interested and hungry.

We're also going to give her a bath and a good brushing, I think. She's suddenly got fairly severe dandruff on her rump. Poor Tuftuf!

Karen